God is love
His grace is more than I deserve.
His grace overwhelms me.
When I expect to come to God and feel guilt
He returns to me with grace.
He opens his arms wide open telling me he loves me.
Despite my sin.
Despite my choices.
Despite my ignoring of him.
He does this for me over and over again
every time
I just sit in awe of how his love is truly unfailing.
If you ask me.
As a simple human none of what God does makes any sense.
He has the whole world.
He is in control
He can do whatever he wants
YET he lets us make our own choices and run back to him when we realize we need him.
He gets so happy to see me.
again.
there is no where else I would rather be.
a week goes by and I find myself slipping or being distracted by the world
God sees this happen in my life too.
I know that all I have to do is talk to him.
I still become afraid he will get mad.
That he wont want me back this time.
...
HE ALWAYS WANTS ME.
always.
without fail he is faithful to be my father and best friend.
Even when I am alone and deserve it.
He doesnt think I should be alone.
He not only holds me so close.
He puts people in my life to love me.
Its overwhelming.
more than overwhelming.
It makes me want to throw out everything in my life that should not be there.
to throw away all my selfish plans.
To give it ALL to God.
All is alot.
It seems that most times when I pray for God to take it all.
I dont let go of everything.
He is more than willing to take it.
Even better He is THRILLED TO TAKE IT.
The other day I got sad.
Then I had an epiphany at physical therapy.
I am sad because I am living for myself.
If I strive to Live for God above all
then I will begin to live my life to serve other people.
My needs will become second and last to others needs.
I want my life to be that way.
Over and over again I become frustrated with the richness in this world.
Oh gosh.
WE are so rich.
Sometimes I wonder how my life would be if I had grown up poor.
I am very convinced I will be poor when I am older.
Today is sometimes hard.
Sometimes today I feel insecure or not worthy.
Do you ever look around and think everyone is better than you?
Of course you do.
Its human.
Somtimes I dont feel smart enough,
pretty enough,
funny enough,
strong enough,
confident enough...
there is alot of stuff I will not amount to in every moment.
God calls me to be Amber.
He has called me in a special way.
He has called you in a special way.
We are each an individual.
Why do we keep looking around wishing our lives were different.
When your life has a specific special calling.
Talk to God.
I have found that is what gets me through those moments of insecurity and being unsure of life.
He thinks you are brilliant and beautiful...
He wants to be with you ALWAYS AND FOREVER.
I take comfort in that thought.
It gets me through alot.
I live a very blessed life.
And so do you.
Even when we dont feel like the luckiest person in the room
Look at what God has given you and where you are.
be overwhelmed.
