"No day, but today"

These are the days I'll never forget.

Life has been getting crazy lately...

as much as I have been in love with every moment of my life lately

I still get overwhelmed by the amount of stuff happening in my life.

I still have moments of stress.

Thankfully I have beautiful friends that have a common love of glee that can always make me smile and feeel a little more at peace.

I am also thankful that I have a God that knows how to talk to me.

Especially when I need to him.

I was just gonna put a verse but I couldnt God uses every word.

By Your Side Lyrics

Why are you striving these days

Why are you trying to earn grace

Why are you crying 

Let me lift up your face

Just don't turn away

Why are you looking for love

Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough

To where will you go child

Tell me where will you run

To where will you run

And I'll be by your side

Wherever you fall

In the dead of night

Whenever you call

And please don't fight

These hands that are holding you

My hands are holding you

Look at these hands and my side

They swallowed the grave on that night

When I drank the world's sin

So I could carry you in

And give you life

I want to give you life

Cause I, I love you

I want you to know

That I, I love you

I'll never let you go

A moment of rest  God's word filling into me like a warm breeeze of sunshine.

I was pulled back to those moments in Australia.

That moment I heard that song and the story that wrecked me.

in the most beautiful way.

on the beach early in the morning

as the sun had just rose and the sound of the water so sooothing.

I lost it.

In God's presence I lost it.

He was talking to me.

I heard him real clear.

 Life could not be better than today.

"NO DAY BUT TODAY"

 I wasn't planning to fall for someone the end of my senior year, but God has used it to keep me in the moments I have right now. These moments of the end of highschool that I will never get back.

I have lots of plans for the future.

BIG PLANS.

That I am stoked about.

BUT

no day but today.

I am not promised tomorrow.

The future will come if and when it does.

Im loving right now.

Im loving the simple nights of wathcing glee in the akers basement.

The simple lunches watching hannah and curls.... haha.

the attempt to make Cayle dinner and he basically tells me how to do it the whole time.

Then adding twice as many chocolate chips to my homemade chocolate chip cookies because that IS the best part.

Sitting in the car until the moment I HAVE to go inside talking about how much we love right now.

I wouldn't trade right now for anything.

I think my last few blogs have been about this, but I think WE SOOO OFten forget...

we get caught up in what we are gonnna do this summer or with the rest of our lives or we get comfortable in the fact that we are leaving all of this behind sooon.

I'm not ready to move on.

I am ready to enjoy right now.

I am excited to do a play with beautiful people that I will probably never act with again in my life.

I am excited to hear all those college stories as my friends have begun coming back from school.

How their lives are moving on and in a year that will be me telling stories of adventure and learning experiences...

everytime I talk about Azusa

:)

I am so excited.

I know ill be stoked when that time comes.

Ill love Californina.

Im sure of it.

But I love the people in my life now.

I will always love them.

Even if states give us more seperation than we would like.

I thank God everyday for the friends I have met just this year that I will have for the rest of my life.

God always knows what he is doing.

I dont doubt

that he IS HOLDING ME.

Holding my life.

right now.

and

forever.

There is no day but today.

Live now :)

Trust and dont let the moments pass you by.

Enjoy :)

 

It starts today.

Wait a minute.

Not everyone thinks the same way I do?

I forget that sometimes...

I forget that everyone is different.

no two people are the same.

and for that I am glad.

The world would be boring.

You know what.

I want to "change the world"

hmmmm....

classic statement.

kinda broad if you ask me. what does that even actually mean?

change the world?

change it into what?

I feel like movie stars or singers change the world

because they introduce new ideas through films or lyrics

that maybe the world would has never thought of before.

but I dont plan to become famous in that way...

I want to change the world.

I want to make a difference

I want to help people

BUT

People who give their lives to helping people.. peace core and such...

they arent famous.

not a household name like justin beiber.

in that sense the world does not know who they are.

LIGHTBULB

maybe thats the point.

Those who choose to be selfless in their life may not be known by the world but they are bettering and helping the world in which they are in.

Maybe they will only ever affect the people they meeet face to face

but they are affecting people

and that matters

People keep talking about what they want to be when they grow up and all that stuff

its kinda the time...

but I just keep thinking the future starts now...

You want to help people with your life?

then start helping people now...

today.

Its not always just about that distance goal,.

you are becoming who your gonna be right now.

 the choices you make today are shaping you for who you will be tomorrow.

God.... where are you?

sometimes...I am unsure.

Sometimes I wonder if your in the religion or the people

the church.

your supposed to be in the church right?

then why are the people in the church coming out unchanged?

why are they still empty inside if its supposed to be the place you find God.

If we find God in the church then we should walk in

find him

leave

having him.

that doesnt seem to  be happening though.

I am seeing people enter,

leave the same.

A world that doesnt need God?

In my mind everyone needs God just maybe they dont know it yet.

IF everyone needs God then how come there is so many HAPPY, SUCCESSFUL people out there doing just fine?

At what point do you STEP in and make them need you?

growing up in the church

and truly living in the real world have

been messing with my head.

Donald Miller

"Searching for God knows what"

Don't you love how you can just be thinking about all this stufff

then BAM

God just shows up and answers you.

He does that.

Even when I have been getting relaxed on my church attendance and daily bible reading.

Im imperfect.

surprise!

haha that shouldnt be a surprise no one is perfect.

ANYWAY.

Today first God hits me straight on with what I needed to hear at church

then he takes me to barnes and noble to find D. MILLERS book that I havent read yet

I have adequate amount of time

of course

I sit and start reading

the introduction is every thought im having at the current moment.

HOW IS THAT EVEN POSSIBLE?

Oh God, so funny. :)

does emptiness come?

I feel completely content.

will this feeling last if I stay where I am or if I just stay complacent will I feel it eventually.

I think tonight was my answer

I love where I am.

But

God has called me to more than this.

God has bigger plans

and my future of big plans starts now.

High school is almost over.

This year...

best year of my life.

I am so thankful that I got to live it.

Each day has been important to me and I dont want the last twenty or so days of highschool to fly by with out being significant.

People matter

this city matters

California will come when it is supposed to come and not a second sooner

Ill be ready.

I have time here still

and people to still be with here

a difference to still make here.

Just because we are graduating and moving away

doesnt mean that everything in this world right here ends today.

Today is still happening and it still matters.

We are called to be more than just coasters...

getting through each day.

I preach this stuff

but specifically what can I be doing to make each day count?

tell people you  love them

spend moments with those you care about or those who need to know they are cared about.

Leave a surprise.

Make someone smile.

In a small way

In a BIG way.

Dont let the small stuff get you down.

Let dramma..... conflict...

how much does it really matter anyway?

and HEY be nice to everyone.

CUZ apparently thats not common ;)

it doesnt seem that hard to just be nice to everyone.

What do you have to lose :)

I feel like you would lose more by being mean or gossiping...

so well hmmmm

just dont :)

Its not that hard.

love people.

make a difference in your world right now.

Who are you today?