Kaden Mathis....

even though he's kind of a loser, i love him with all my heart :) !

A day in the life of Amber.

Tuesday, November 30th 2010

6:00a.m. awoken unnecessarily by my own conscience.

Went peee

got back in my nice warm bed just in time to hear a distant alarm going off in my room.

I suspect it is the same alarm that goes off every day at 5:48p.m.

An old phone that is hiding somewhere in my room that I have been unable to find for months.

quickly I fall back into slumber

but not for long enough

7:30 - alarm clock time

8:10 - watch time

and

7:10 - real time

the alarm goes offf for reals.

As you can see I have some trouble with keeeping the correct time.

I proceed to press snooze three times and evenutally am forced up by a final alarm from my phone at 8am that I was unaware was set but sure was glad it went off.

8:02-leave my bed

8:05-shower

8:10-get out of shower

wash face, lotion tattoo, scrounge for warm clothes

settle on a young life tshirt with my brown colorado state sweatshirt that I got for a buck at a yardsale :)

I run out to start my car.

I am kinda surprised by the amount of snow that has collected.

I didnt even know it had snowed last night but everything was covered white even more than the day before!

8:23- a text from Rachel telling me the roads are bad.

Goood ill have an excuse for why I am late for school.

Cuz I was definitely on the track to being late.

8:25 ate cinnamon roll.

8:30 mommmmm callls.

lick frosting off napkin.

take four seconds to do hair cuz well I dont actually care.

add socks. one pink. one orange.

layer.

8:39- finally in car. on any normal day this would be fine but on a day such as today with ... snow it was not enough time!

Drive/Slide down street. just to realize I forgot my lunch.

I attempt to turn around.

doesnt work out so well so I continue on... becoming hungry.

traffic is slow.

excuse me.

Annette Ruane is slow ;)

she was very cautious as I drove behind her on the way to school

It was probably gooood. lol

I arrrive to school just as the tardy bell rings.

good.

AHhh the Nov (mrs. Novy my consumer ec teacher) will be fine lol

I sludge my way into school.

becoming very distracted by the color of the snow on the ground.

it was strangely red?

I should not have taken my knitting out of my satchel cuz I need Mary Kay to help start it again.

Said Hello to Isaish and Talia as they passed out stuff

informed D. Waite that I STILL have his grandpa sweater.

and discussed with Maddi her hate for snow.

Late for class as predicted Novy was fine :)
I even got to sit by Justine which doesnt always happen!

We chatted and I read the Frankenstein I had to have read by today while we watched Dave Ramsey.

9:20-Done reading.

9:21- blow my nose.

Novy starts talking... when she talks I have this tendency to space out.

I would rather be sleeping.

Justine and I become upset becaue Mrs. Novy suggests that we might be doing an assignment in this class that sounds like some kind of hard work. I dont actually forsee that happening.

Girl in front of me looks up Hobbs High School.

I could have sworn it said Hobo High School.

hahah sabrina :)

12 days til Australia.

PRETTY SURE SHE JUST said we should have alot of cats.

"Woah, How long was I asleep?" Austin Stephens.

She let us out of consumer early.

Its funny how two minutes earlier changes routine so much. I saw different people then usual. I saw the same people in different places. it was weird lol

saw Kayla WATSON and Harmony tagg.

Attacked AMETHYST FOR HER BIRTHDAY :)))

hugged and chatted with the lovely foreign ;) hannah donhdt (those letters in some order)

LOVE YOU GIRLIE!

hehehe

Talked with Bridgid.

we discussed our dislike for school.

we laughed.

we always laugh.

I miss seeing her daily.

For more than just fifth period.

I actually facebook creeeped on her last night and looked at all her pictures but I didnt tell her that today. haha

Talked with Amber mann about our sadnesss for young life being cancelled.

Then SHELBY LONG huggged us both. classic amber sandwhich hug.

As I enter class I realize ZACH STOTT is not there!! its very upsettting.

How am I supposed to get through psychology without zach?!?!

10:13- I decide to be useful and work ahead.

then I fall asleep for the rest of class.

Second day in a row.

Its becoming a habit.

Lunch.

Had to buy lunch since I forgot mine.

But I was pleased to see RAVIOLIA!!!!

:) and rice.

so that made me happy.

plus pears and chocolate milk for the low low price of 3 dollars :)

its only my third time getting lunch at school so I often get confused still hah

Run into Polvi

HE GIVES ME THE BEST THING EVER!

Martinellis apple juice in a circular plastic bottle.

If you have had them you know what I am talking about. They are so goooood! and cute :)

THen we headed to buddy club to eat with Eugene, taylor and Lisa :)

It was a classy lunch.

I went to go to the bathroom.

There was a sign that said bathroom and I went in.

But it was NOT a bathroom.

I was so confused...

I felt like an idiot walking out two seconds later asking for a second time where the bathroom was.

Polvi informed me the concert is a go!

Eugene made all the shots toooday.

He should play basketball for sures!

i <3 Brianna Booth.

Get to ap lit.

Dan makes some comment about micheals jacket I just continue to live my life ignoring dan.

Connie is not there.

frustrating.

then BAM.

she walks in two minutes late.

vocab.

wish I could remember what I read.

oh well.

12 days til australia.

I'd rather be sleeping.

"The only thing that is consistent in life is change"
Dan Pak... what a crack up.

11:55- Tom Riddle is referred to. Mr. Porter only took 20 minutes to make a harry potter parallel.

I look in front of me and Connie has the perfect looking colored vocab paper she wrote out.

I look at mine. :)

scratches. haah I continually forgot stuff and scribbled stuff out.

Personality differences haha.

Glad I have a clear shot of Corwin.

He is often amusing.

Crap. I still dont have that monologue for next period memorized.

12:03- Dan Pak loud grunt laugh.

12:05- Connie starts up the accents.

Didnt take her too long ;)

I <3 Jean's hair.

My juice is gone!

when did that happen. upsetting.

"To not act is ironically an action"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1NvgLkuEtkA

dont ask why this came up when I was talking to Connie and Kayla lol

"Who determines what ugly is"
Leaving class I chat with the CODY OLSEN

A lovely soul!

I HAVE A CUTE HUG with BEAUTIFUL TAYTE KOUSSA in the stairwell :) I havent seen her in like a week! its upsetting.

I <3 Maggie Jones.

I FINALLY GET THE HARRY POTTER BLOOD DRIVE THING. oh gosh k

I did not understand how harry potter and giving blood were even related but its callled the harry potter blood drive.

I was not planning to give blood. but NOW. hmmm its debatable. even though the thought of needles taking my blood makes me wish to vomit. for the good of mankind? perhaps I could.

This one smalll child probably a freshman who always talks to me says hello.

 I should probably learn his name.

He is a good person.

:)

I remember upon arriving into the drama room that duo scenes are today.

OF course Drew and I are first.

We actually did a good job.

Probably the best performance of our scene yet.

Except he set the paper on the floor and i picked it up off the chair lol.

oh well.

AP STATS.

:)

always classy.

Ralph told me this story about how when he went to the doctor today the doctor was talking then all of a sudden just stoppped... loooked around awkwardly and said, "Well i just forgot wat I was gonna say"

I thought that was really funny for some reason.

I ate and orange.

and the answer is yes my hands do still smell like oranges.

walking to sixth with Kenzie Rex she had hiccups then coming in to stats Ralph had hiccups... weird.

Text from mom... job cancelled.

text from brenna... gleee party cancelled.

gosh my night opened up.

To be at home and do NOTHING.

Cuz my parents wont let me drive even with other people.

Drove home.

Wasnt hard cUZ the roads are not that bad!!!!

the world is not ending.

Got on skype and talked to Gareth for almost an hour.

Plans with Erin cancelled.

Plans with ethan didnt work cuz my mom wont let me leave.

Plans to go to the casino with james and sean haha we will see :)

I really liked this snow at first but now I am frustrated cuz its restraining me.

I am excited for twelve days.. summer.. in twelve days :)

Australia.

well basically.

welcome to my life.

hahahaha.

this was random.

Gave me something to do today.

Not that exciting of a day.

just a normal tuesday minus the usual highlight of glee.

peace. :)

Serendipity, fishbowl, and twelve short kids

In 14 days I will be on a plane flying to Dream. My dream to go to Australia.

I still can't believe it.

I am now poor due to the fact that the tickets are pretty crazy expensive.

It is worth it.

God opened a door.

I leaped in.

No hesitation.

Going alone.

adventure.

I can't wait :)

It's funny though.

How much I hate leaving the tri cities ... even just for a few days.

This is home.

Here I have family.

Not just my actual family.

But the friends I consider my family.

I don't know what it will be like in a year when I am off to college.

Hopefully in SO CAL :)

california.

At Azusa Pacific.

Gosh...

SOmetimes I want to know exactly what the future holds and other times its really nice to just float ( LIKE A LEAF) through life getting to experience so much on the way to where you are supposed to be going.

"Its all about the people you will meet, the surprises and the serendiptious moments"

Said a man who walked across the united states.

He set out for adventure with no real agenda.

I wish to go at life like this.

I very strongly would like to travel across country in a hippie van next summer.

first step.

get a hippie van.

find companions.

:)

I know several people who want toooo.

Im in.

This weeeek truly has beeen splendid.

Starting monday non stop crazy happinesss :)

Lots of sleep overs... :) and friends home from college.

and I would have to say ice skating last night was SO fun.

Our friends kinda took over the rink.

Its wat we do.

i loved it.

Passsion for life. hah :)

Even in weak moments... there is always a forward motion to seeek after.

there is always somewhere to go.

I often feel like I cant handle being alone and sitting still.

I always want to be with people.

I find this as a strength and weakness.

My great love for people gives me desire to care about people no matter who they are.

I wish to be like Jesus.

But it can become a weakness when you have to sit down and write an essay or have some quiet time lol cuz then you feeel ancy.

could be a.d.d.

lol not that I know for sure if i have it.

Life a.d.d. i say :)

Today I spent the day with Ashley Wood.

I miss her.

I never see her.

She is wonderful.

We talk about God as He is real.

Its beautiful.

Its nice.

Its not all churchy its just God... this is what he is doing.

This is the good and bad in my life and what God is saying about it.

God is so real.

HAH :)

 I love it.

He just talks and listens...

sometimes we listen..

sometimes we ignore him.

But always we are his.

I got a tattoo for those who dont know yet.

It is on my foot it says

"Always and Forever"

because no matter where I am or whats going on in my life I will always and forever be God's and He will always be with me here on earth and I will live forever with him in heaven.

He spoke that to me this summer.

I will never forget.

I never have to feel alone.

I do often feeeel alone.

Then God changes my perspective and talks clearly to me and I remember I am loved.

I haven't blogged in awhile.

I always have stuff I would like to blog about...

but I have been preoccupied.

and distracted.

and kinda upset.

I dont like to blog when I am upset cuz its pretty transparent.

People seee the sad or mad side of me.

BUT GUESS wat :)

we are all humans.

we all have emotions.

we all feeeeeel.

we are allowed to be upset or angry.

I am usually not.

but I shouldnt feeel like I cant be cuz its not in amber character, ya feel?

Even when I am down.

God picks me up.

GIVES ME A HUG.

hah

and lets me know I matter.

I always giggle.

God makes me giggle.

Even when I am ignoring what he says.

He still loves me.

That is so unhuman.

Human love is so interesting.

:)

With obedience comes blessing.

Thanksgiving.

Give thanks..

I am thankful for a full life.

I am thankful for the spirit of God in me.

Giving me hope and determination to not give up.

How does he do it? lol

God has overwhelmed me with WAY more than I deserve.

Just to feeel loved is more than I deserve.

But I love it

I am starting to hate this whole college thing.

Some of my favorite people in the world are at college and I dont get to see them daily.

Its frustrating.

But its necessry for them to go to school.

So ehhhhh im trying to accept it.

OFTEN

I wish to pause time.

I called it today.

It didnt work.

If I could have one super power that would DEFINITELY BE IT!

no questins asked.

For example

right now I should be reading frankenstien for ap lit.

but well I am writing this blog.

If I could just pause time.

write the blog I would still have loads of time to read.

This blog is kinda just a ramble.

I am tired.

Stayed up late lol

Worth it?

yes.

I love my friends.

Did I mention ice skating was the cutest thing of my life hahah.

it was classy.

If you read my last blog and thought it was me.

well it was not.

it was Ethan.

ignore him hahah

 I posted it anyway.

tricked some people.

sorrry :)

Kaden got a cat.

I want to skydive.

I had roll for dinner cut it into fours then put a bunch of honey on it.

no more squash.

J. sheldon is classy.

I have seen spirited away before i am convinced.

MANANA ES UN DIA ESPECIAL.

somtimes life is weird.

things that i expected

dont happen

things that i never expected

HAPPEN.

hahah simple yet profound thought if you ask me.

Its goood. though..

we decided today that we like change.

I love change :)

more than the garlic parmeson boneless wings at wingstop.

which are pretty freaking goood.

There is snow on the ground.

I love it.

Ill miss the snow if i go to so cal for college.

Thank the Lord for winter break!!!

WElllll this has beeeen kinda random but to end with an encouraging note.

Sometimes I dont feel accepted.

I think somtimes everyone feel that way

At some point you will feel out of place

even though i am convinced awkward is just an unnecessary state of mind that we trick ourselves into :)

SOLUTION.

1. Dont be awkward.

2. Be the person who steps out and smiles or shakes a hand.

its generally much appreciated.

Pray for people when you meet them.
Pray for people as you think about them randomly.

Prayer is beautiful cuz no one knows you are praying for them But GOD knows and he will speak into their life thanks to your prayers!

I neeeeed to pray more.

I want people to have surprise blessing :)

YAY.

have a beautiful sunday evening.

do your homework.

hah

monday. embrace loving people.

:) that my plan lol

even when i know i will be tired.

Love around me.

hmmmmmmmmmm yes :)

PEACE.

Hahah this was not my creation.

"Little dolphins frolicking in the ocean!" Pretty much the best thing...ever.  yeah? i think so ha I am so glad to have the coolest friends ever! ETHAN, KEITH, NICK, AND VERN! they cheered me up so much...and trust me.. i needed it.. Life has definitely been throwing me a bunch of curveballs.  Today I woke up and was really craving an apple but..there WERE NO APPLES! it sucked!! I had to go all the way to Albertsons and there I was cut off by..two MEXICANS!  not that i have anything against them but I was trying to get my APPLES! I think God knew what I needed tho..they got out of the car and apologized to me and then..offered me an..APPLE! oH bOy, "thank you Jesus" (and jose and juan)...They are now my favorite people.ever ha..So i wanted to make apple juice but then i remembered that it makes me constipated. So i didn't hah It really bothers me when people mope around..Just be happy. not to be mean but lifes just too short to be gay. (i just squeaked lol) (literally). Today i forgot that my toilet was broken and i had to go to the bathroom REALLY BAD! so i did the most logical thing, and went in my magazine rack..jk i went in my fire pit. (If i loan it to you and it smells, now you know why). i don't get why the people who supply the shelves in grocery stores wear aprons. it's not like they're going to get dirty. so why wear one!? ... this blog brought to you by the creative minds of ethan dufault, keith nichols and veronica bradly