Serendipity, fishbowl, and twelve short kids

In 14 days I will be on a plane flying to Dream. My dream to go to Australia.

I still can't believe it.

I am now poor due to the fact that the tickets are pretty crazy expensive.

It is worth it.

God opened a door.

I leaped in.

No hesitation.

Going alone.

adventure.

I can't wait :)

It's funny though.

How much I hate leaving the tri cities ... even just for a few days.

This is home.

Here I have family.

Not just my actual family.

But the friends I consider my family.

I don't know what it will be like in a year when I am off to college.

Hopefully in SO CAL :)

california.

At Azusa Pacific.

Gosh...

SOmetimes I want to know exactly what the future holds and other times its really nice to just float ( LIKE A LEAF) through life getting to experience so much on the way to where you are supposed to be going.

"Its all about the people you will meet, the surprises and the serendiptious moments"

Said a man who walked across the united states.

He set out for adventure with no real agenda.

I wish to go at life like this.

I very strongly would like to travel across country in a hippie van next summer.

first step.

get a hippie van.

find companions.

:)

I know several people who want toooo.

Im in.

This weeeek truly has beeen splendid.

Starting monday non stop crazy happinesss :)

Lots of sleep overs... :) and friends home from college.

and I would have to say ice skating last night was SO fun.

Our friends kinda took over the rink.

Its wat we do.

i loved it.

Passsion for life. hah :)

Even in weak moments... there is always a forward motion to seeek after.

there is always somewhere to go.

I often feel like I cant handle being alone and sitting still.

I always want to be with people.

I find this as a strength and weakness.

My great love for people gives me desire to care about people no matter who they are.

I wish to be like Jesus.

But it can become a weakness when you have to sit down and write an essay or have some quiet time lol cuz then you feeel ancy.

could be a.d.d.

lol not that I know for sure if i have it.

Life a.d.d. i say :)

Today I spent the day with Ashley Wood.

I miss her.

I never see her.

She is wonderful.

We talk about God as He is real.

Its beautiful.

Its nice.

Its not all churchy its just God... this is what he is doing.

This is the good and bad in my life and what God is saying about it.

God is so real.

HAH :)

 I love it.

He just talks and listens...

sometimes we listen..

sometimes we ignore him.

But always we are his.

I got a tattoo for those who dont know yet.

It is on my foot it says

"Always and Forever"

because no matter where I am or whats going on in my life I will always and forever be God's and He will always be with me here on earth and I will live forever with him in heaven.

He spoke that to me this summer.

I will never forget.

I never have to feel alone.

I do often feeeel alone.

Then God changes my perspective and talks clearly to me and I remember I am loved.

I haven't blogged in awhile.

I always have stuff I would like to blog about...

but I have been preoccupied.

and distracted.

and kinda upset.

I dont like to blog when I am upset cuz its pretty transparent.

People seee the sad or mad side of me.

BUT GUESS wat :)

we are all humans.

we all have emotions.

we all feeeeeel.

we are allowed to be upset or angry.

I am usually not.

but I shouldnt feeel like I cant be cuz its not in amber character, ya feel?

Even when I am down.

God picks me up.

GIVES ME A HUG.

hah

and lets me know I matter.

I always giggle.

God makes me giggle.

Even when I am ignoring what he says.

He still loves me.

That is so unhuman.

Human love is so interesting.

:)

With obedience comes blessing.

Thanksgiving.

Give thanks..

I am thankful for a full life.

I am thankful for the spirit of God in me.

Giving me hope and determination to not give up.

How does he do it? lol

God has overwhelmed me with WAY more than I deserve.

Just to feeel loved is more than I deserve.

But I love it

I am starting to hate this whole college thing.

Some of my favorite people in the world are at college and I dont get to see them daily.

Its frustrating.

But its necessry for them to go to school.

So ehhhhh im trying to accept it.

OFTEN

I wish to pause time.

I called it today.

It didnt work.

If I could have one super power that would DEFINITELY BE IT!

no questins asked.

For example

right now I should be reading frankenstien for ap lit.

but well I am writing this blog.

If I could just pause time.

write the blog I would still have loads of time to read.

This blog is kinda just a ramble.

I am tired.

Stayed up late lol

Worth it?

yes.

I love my friends.

Did I mention ice skating was the cutest thing of my life hahah.

it was classy.

If you read my last blog and thought it was me.

well it was not.

it was Ethan.

ignore him hahah

 I posted it anyway.

tricked some people.

sorrry :)

Kaden got a cat.

I want to skydive.

I had roll for dinner cut it into fours then put a bunch of honey on it.

no more squash.

J. sheldon is classy.

I have seen spirited away before i am convinced.

MANANA ES UN DIA ESPECIAL.

somtimes life is weird.

things that i expected

dont happen

things that i never expected

HAPPEN.

hahah simple yet profound thought if you ask me.

Its goood. though..

we decided today that we like change.

I love change :)

more than the garlic parmeson boneless wings at wingstop.

which are pretty freaking goood.

There is snow on the ground.

I love it.

Ill miss the snow if i go to so cal for college.

Thank the Lord for winter break!!!

WElllll this has beeeen kinda random but to end with an encouraging note.

Sometimes I dont feel accepted.

I think somtimes everyone feel that way

At some point you will feel out of place

even though i am convinced awkward is just an unnecessary state of mind that we trick ourselves into :)

SOLUTION.

1. Dont be awkward.

2. Be the person who steps out and smiles or shakes a hand.

its generally much appreciated.

Pray for people when you meet them.
Pray for people as you think about them randomly.

Prayer is beautiful cuz no one knows you are praying for them But GOD knows and he will speak into their life thanks to your prayers!

I neeeeed to pray more.

I want people to have surprise blessing :)

YAY.

have a beautiful sunday evening.

do your homework.

hah

monday. embrace loving people.

:) that my plan lol

even when i know i will be tired.

Love around me.

hmmmmmmmmmm yes :)

PEACE.