Peace Out, Girl Scout.

"O God, listen tomy cry!

Hear my prayer!

From the ends of the earth,

I cry for you for help

when my heart is overwhelmed.

Lead me to the towering rock of safety.

For you are my safe refuge

a fortress where my enemies cannot reach me.

Let me live forever in your sanctuary.

safe beneath the shelter of your wings!"

Psalm 61:1-4

So I had another epiphany in my car last night. I realize I often have ephipanies in my car when alone and listening to music that is written and sang by people who love Jesus.

The epiphany goes like so..... Fall in love with Jesus and all else will follow. Simple eh? ... not exactly. See .. I have known this thought for like ehhh my whole life but it is EXTREMELY easy to get distracted. I feel that I am always distracted. I always run after God when I feel alone. One cuz I hate feeling alone and Two I know God will give me peace. I dont want it to be this way I want to be running after God all the time despite my circumstances in this world I want to be all for him living for him excited and happy to be with Him.

The fact is we think we can do it on our own.

We do most things with a self motivated mindset. We lose weight for us and push ourselves... we make our own goals and do wat WE can to accomplish them. We make friends and do what we can to strengthen those friendships. All these things in themselves are not bad. But at what point do we decide its something we need to give to God. When is a good time to start relying on God to give us peace about how we look or if we have friends?

I believe its from the start but not many people do that. Like who prays before they start a diet or workout? ehhhh I know I dont.

I think our lives would be alot more fillled up with joy and peace if we trusted God with EVERYTHING ... not just the stuff that makes us sad or lonely.

We are never alone. Its nice to know God wants me.

Its even better when I turn to him and he tells me personally.

Like this morning as I awoke not exactly the best morning ever... feeling a but depressed then God gave me this scripture Psalm 61...the one at the top of this blog. It was what I needed to hear my heart was feeling overwhelmed. Now God has given me more peace... Dont get me wrong life didnt just all of a sudden turn to PEACHES AND CREAM HAPPINESS but with God you get a clear head and peace just overcomes you its fantastic.

I am not enjoying August as much as previous months this summer. Everyone seems a litttle off in august.... Maybe its cuz in the back of our minds we know its all gonna end soon... the craziness of summmer. The fun. People are gonna go to college and its gonna be sad. I will admit that two nights ago I had a pretty swell evening with a group of my friends all wearing matching white V necks sitting in the dark at playground of dreams listening to two girls we have never ever met talk about their boy problems. I laughed the whole time mostly cuz Josh Maiers comments get me every time. that Kid. Sooo he didnt have a v neck but he did have a white tshirt so he just CUT a super low vneck in it ahahah it was great! After the park we all went to Walmart and adventured around quite a bit. Brenna rode a motorized cart thing like the whole time she even raced a worker hahaha. THEN WE GOT FREE CUPCAKES! shout out to Janine the worker who gave them to us. It was a good night.

Anyway people need to get over this strange haze called august and enjoy the last month of freedom we have left until schoool starts.

On friday I went to a wedding. Grant and Kristens. They were adorable. I cried :) CONGRATS TO THEM.

I dont know if I like weddings. People say that your wedding is gonna be like the best day of your life. Maybe I just dont know until I find that right guy and get there but it just seems like so much stress for one day. and alot of money! I am nervous for when I have to make that decision. hah I know that sounds silly I am seventeen I still have lots of time and growing up to do. But truthfully there is people I know who got married at my age. I dont really think you should get married that young. I believe people can be in love at this age but you still have so much changing and growing to do wether you like it or not. Waiting always seems best even when it comes to dating... dont rush ya know. But hey what do I know :) everyone is different lol. Thats just how I feel.

Speaking of Love.. I have recently been discussing with close friends what they think of true love. If they believe in soulmates and alll that such. Some of my dear friends think there is not just one person right for you but you get to chooose. A good thought. I cant seem to try think that way. I am not sure if its just my fairytale mindset but I think there is one right person for everyone. Or at least I want to trust God knows what he is doing when I finally meet the one I will marry. haah well thats my two cents about love. Take it or leave it :) I dont mind if you disagree.

This blog has the correct name... amber thoughts. lol thanks for listening. Friday is my hip surgery I should be home frieday night and plan to have movie marathons all weekend. For sure Lord of the Rings saturday and Boy meets world season 7 on sunday. Come visit me :)